Posts Tagged ‘Games’

Me and mine both have struggled with different types of anxiety and depression. Use to be every weekend though, we would go to LAN parties for Halo night. We were always busy and always going.

But that stopped. People get older, priorities change, you get put on the back burner or just just realize how shitty some of the people you were friends with, really were.

And all that can be a harsh self confidence hit. So then what?

Oh, I know! I’ll play online! People of all ages, races, and cultures joining together to have fun in the good spirit of competition. What could go wrong?


Oh that’s what can go wrong.

So it’s like a minefield of insults and elitist bullshit.

I understand that not everything is like this, my point is just that a lot of it is. And for someone with anxiety it makes the whole pastime seem completely unapproachable.

I want to play PVP as well as PVE, I want to have a good time, I want the same loot and rewards as everyone else.

But that’s kinda hard when people like me are hyperventilating while trying to psych themselves up just to hit the A button to join.

There seems to be a lack of causal play in fps. I don’t mind being killed. I just don’t want to be ran up on with a shotgun and then tea-bagged because that douche thinks they’re cool. I don’t want to be sniped as soon I spawn. Over and over and over and then getting a message saying to “git gud” What happened to GG and good sportsmanship?

Maybe FPS isn’t the way to go. I’ll just still play PVE but just ignore PVP for a bit.


What’s next?

Omg! Pokemon Go! Augmented reality of a game I’ve been playing for years that brings beloved Pokémon into my world?



…Not much going on here. And…

So close but yet so far

So close but yet so far

This^ this exactly

I don’t go out a lot. I work from home. I don’t have a car or license and as I said, my husbando & I both have anxiety issues that have only gotten worse after the unpleasantness of me losing a job about two years ago.

We just kinda withdrew from the world and stayed there. By there, I mean our house;  with our Xboxs, and our cat.

(which I love him, our cat, and our Xboxs a lot, don’t get me wrong)

But the friends I stay connected with over Facebook are meeting up, going out and combining games with friends and even exercise.
Sounds like a great deal!



Yeah I’m still here.

Things I feel

  • We aren’t wanted
  • We would be singled out as outsiders
  • Someone would bring up a touchy subject that would cause more anxiety
  • Massive guilt for not going and giving people a chance
  • Like a failure at any given point for any given reason
  • Worry about what people think
  • Worry I’ll look back with regret
  • Worry that my stress makes someone else stress worse


Now imagine all of this swirling around my mind and that plus more in my husband’s mind and that’s what happens every time there’s an event or some reason to leave.

I know I’m not the only one who feels this way,  but I think most other people get over it at least enough to meet up with friends when these times come up.

My point is, you or someone you know probably feels this way too.  If it’s someone you know, more than likely think they are just rude or shitty people when in reality they are going through a lot of things to even get up in the morning.

All people need to do better. (Me included.) Be better friends. Make friends feel included and wanted. Show interest in things you know they do. Don’t be afraid to make the first move. Extroverts and introverts need to work together.

Don’t be that douche on PVP that feels the need to be the best fucking alpha dog and tea bag people.

Or that person on forums who’s first response is something rude, racist, sexist, or any combination of the words git, gud, scrub, or just any other insult that IRL would get you a hate speech charge.

Wait, wait, wait, hold up.

Let me go ahead and nip this in the bud too.

This is not a “if you can’t take the heat, get out of the kitchen” situation. This is more of a “just don’t be a dick” situation.

No, I don’t expect anyone to act as if people are made of glass. I’m not suggesting wearing kid gloves when dealing with every person in world.

You probably think I want things to be like a hippie kids soccer game where they don’t keep score and everyone gets a trophy. Nope, that doesn’t solve anything either in my opinion. What I’m saying, is maybe don’t go push the worst kid into the dirt and yell at them. That doesn’t seem too hard. Or maybe I just expect too much out of the general public.



I’m actually exploding inside

I apologize if this post is a little all over the place. My feeling on these matters, as you might assume, are very passionate.

I love games. I also have a lot of issues. These two facts don’t always see eye to eye.

To be honest a lot of these feeling were brought up by Pokemon Go. It seems to strange. The world starts doing things I think are amazing, but I’m so deep in this hole the world put me in I can’t get out to enjoy it.

In the end, games are great at bringing people together. It’s just a little harder for some. And there’s always one asshole who just wants to make things even harder instead of helping a community. If you are not that asshole, keep up the good work!

Keep being a friend to the people who you meet IRL and online. We all fight different battles, but we should at least be able to team up once in awhile.

(shout-out to Josh, who is my best teammate ever)

From the bottom of my heart, GG!


Zombies, Dune Buggies, and Dismemberment galore!

I fucking love dinosaurs.


Next Tattoo?

Mix dinosaurs and a crafting/building/survival game, I am all in!

Really. Like I feel not much more explanation should be needed but for the hope that I can get a few more people to join this game, I will hype some more.

An action-adventure survival video game that was first available as an early preview on the PC back in June 2015 then added to Xbox one in December.



  • Food, Water, Temperature & Weather
  • Harvest, Build Structures, Paint Items, Dinos and Yourself
  • Plant, Farm & Grow
  • Tame And Benefit From Numerous Creatures
  • Learn to Craft more Items with Engrams
  • RP Oriented Custom Cooking System!
  • Collect Precious Artifacts In Dangerous Caves
  • Summon The Ultimate Life Forms
  • Advanced Tribe System
  • Hardcore Game Mechanics
  • Explore And Discover
  • Large-World Persistence And Meta-Universe
  • Robust Steam Workshop Mod Support and dedicated DevKit
  • High-End Next-Gen Visuals
  • Host your own Dedicated Server.

Full release is set for June and I can’t wait.

So getting into the game itself; while multi-player servers are an option for you to join…I’m antisocial and don’t care for griefers, I just played alone to begin with.

You spawn naked and afraid. And let me say, please pay attention to your spawn zone when you first get it. There are a ton of options, here are a few suggestions for at least when you are just starting out.

  • Make Sure Difficulty Isn’t Too High
  • Shorten Night Time A Schoch
  • Harvest Amount ^
  • Taming Speed ^
  • Spawn In A Easy Zone!

My first couple of spawns did not go great at all. It was only a few seconds before I was face to face something far larger and far angrier than me.



Shown here tamed for safety

Ok alone is not the way to go…

This is where that extra Xbox comes in handy. (Note that this part is not necessary, you can just co-op play joining a friend but this does have a set back, you can only move a certain distance from the host)

Set up server-bing bang boom-

Join with husband and friend-


Josh showing off the newest build

old house

Ok this is better.


As you can see having friends does help. I’m unsure how great the community is, so I would however recommend playing on your own some before jumping into the public.

There’s a lot to do! You can go from a stone spear to an assault rifle. From eating berries to having a fridge (yes, a refrigerator) stocked with yummy jerky. From cowering in fear to being king of carnos and rexs.



Speaking of-the real highlight here are the dinos and other prehistoric creatures.

in dinoin dinos 3

Over 50 different species. Many many tame-able and most serving different uses.

IE doedicurus for stone, mammoth for wood, frog for killing bugs.

Maybe it’s just me, but I find it pretty effin cool.  I felt like a giddy kid walking beside a bronto the first time


and was throwing out Jurassic Park quotes whenever I could.


They have even more things planed, here are just some of the great steps in the weird evolutionary process that are being added.



One thing I haven’t explored yet are the bosses. As of now there are four.

bosses.pngAwesome, right? Unfortunately, only the Broodmother is on the Xbox summon-able by gathering certain artifacts and taking them to one of the the three mystical obelisks around the map.


So if you were curious as to why you spawn naked and afraid on a strange island with prehistoric creatures and an implant in your arm with these strange glowing obelisks around, here’s what the Official Wiki has to say-

STORY-This is an empty page so far. please post your theories on what the story of the Ark is.

GG, guys, GG.


So there it is guys, if your going to be buying a prehistoric survival game, do yourself a favor make is it this one. It’s a great deal for $35 considering how much time you can really spend in this game.



So there’s still a little bit of a wait, but hype is hype. And for the first time in a while, I’m started to feel the hype.

*See the hearts below



Oh but why isn’t halo marked you ask. Eh, I loved Halo once upon a time.  And it will probably be good but I can wait for it, no hype needed.

Borderlands 3
I have been a Borderlands fan since the first game, I loved the 2nd to a lesser extent and to a greater extent, the pre-sequel, and all the DLC in between.

My spirit animal

So far the only thing I know is that this project  will be new-gen only.  Which may sucks for some.  But really, the time to upgrade had already came and went.  So if for some reason you haven’t yet,  best get on that.

And even if this game isn’t a direct sequel but another Borderlands story, I’ll still be happy.

The Division
It was first announced E3 2013. It has now been pushed back until 2016.
I don’t think it gets much more hype than that.

Open world, third person, shooter, rpg, mmo, with survival aspects.

So even though it’s still going to be a wait,  I’ll gladly watch anything they want to show me until then.


So pretty

Fallout 4


That is all…

Minecraft: Story Mode

I am a super fan of Tell-Tale Games. Back to the Future, The Walking Dead, Wolf Among Us, Game of Thrones, and Borderlands. All great. Take that and mix it with my already existing love for Minecraft and I’m hoping for a great concoction.


Quantum Break

“Quantum Break for Xbox One is an action-packed, fast paced game in which you bend and shape time in order to survive.”

Let me repeat that. Bend and shape time.

And this-“While developing the game, developers Remedy Entertainment consulted a scientist lecturer who had worked at CERN who taught them how to write the plot in such a way that it adhered to current theoretical physics”

Love that!

Star Wars Battlefront

Do I even have to go over how much of a Star Wars fan I am?

But even with that, I’m slightly hesitant.


Conversation between me and a friend–

There are other things on this list that I am also excited for.

  • Wooly World
  • Mirrors edge 2
  • Phantom Pain
  • Lego Jurassic World
  • Homefront
  • Forza

And of course anything to do with Elder Scrolls as well.

Game informer posted this chart showing whom people were most excited to hear from


And I have to say I mostly agree.

Here is the lineup of whats to come-

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So GG!

I can’t wait to have more news!

As this GameSpot article correctly guessed, I have never played a Witcher game. Not for any reason really.  They look cool,  they look like something I would like,  just never got around to it.

Which got me thinking,  is there anything else I’m lacking? I have played all other games that were listed in the article,  so I’m proud of that.

So here’s what I’ve come up with

  • Candy crush or any other game of that sort
  • Assassin’s creed-I’ve played a little but have never beaten one
  • Fighting games-use to play Tekken in the arcade but that’s about it
  • Bayonetta

But thats pretty much it, including Witcher. So I think I’m doing pretty good on playing the best/popular games.

I can say that so far this year I haven’t played to much of anything. It’s been Neverwinter,  Hardline,  and some Borderlands the pre sequel.

God, that goes with movies too. The newest movie I’ve seen was Frozen. I guess I’m a hipster geek.  I can’t play or watch anything when it first comes out.  It’s to popular then.

So give me some suggestions?  What shouldn’t I miss? Any new movie or game no geek should go without?


It’s been a ridiculously long time since I or anyone else in my household has played Destiny. Sure it was a good game, but there is only so many times you can run through the same raids and/or strikes or be disappointed by drops or the inventory of a certain someone.

Looking at you Xur

Well anyway, there is something new coming soon!

House of Wolves expansion is set to release May 19th.

The fangirl in me who loves the Queen wants to be like this


but the realist in me is more like


(sorry, I’ve been watching a lot of Archer lately)

As with most things, there is no way of knowing just yet. But I have my hesitations. (as I do with the new Battlefront game, but more on that later)

Changes and other facts

  • Level cap raised to 34
  • Doing away with commendation system
  • Level up existing gear by “Ascension”
  • No raid but instead
  • A cooperative battle arena
  • Of course new weapons, ships, and gear

And in case you missed this it, here is a highlight of the most recent update changes as of 4/14

  • Vault Capacity increased to 24 Armor Slots, 36 Weapon Slots, and 24 General Slots
  • Colorblind support
  • Item Lock now allows players to prevent gear and weapon items from being accidentally dismantled
  • Players can now choose to wear their helmets in social spaces
  • Fixed a bug where ammo consumables did not reliably replenish ammo
  • Fixed a bug that caused a player to lose ammo when switching weapons while dead

Bungie is always about the hype so more news is on the way, being released in small doses.

Here is a list of events they have planed as of now.

April 29th-Reveal and live gameplay of Trials of Osiris (3 on 3 clash event) and its collection of end game gear.

May 6th-Reveal and live gameplay of Prison of Elders, a brand new three-player cooperative multiplayer arena.

May 8th-Stay tuned…whatever that means.

If sure this will at least get me playing for a little bit more. But honestly, I was burnt out a while ago. They will definitely start having to pull off some major feats to get my attention back. Because as of now, I am still enjoying Battlefield Hardline.

But I would be lying if I said I wasn’t interested.


Click to see in full detail

She looks pisssssssed

She looks pisssssssed

So thats it for now guys and gals, more news as I see it.


I’ll try not to get too political here.
But in a time of over eager and over armed police force, games that portray such actions may seem inappropriate.


But maybe not.

For one, in the main story, you are rewarded for solving your cases while disarming and capturing criminals alive. (Fat lot of good it does you though)

(no spoilers)

I’ll go ahead and get to my point.

It’s possible to play this game online (and be productive) without worrying about your K/D.


Yes, as strange as it may seem to most the people I’ve played with online, it is possible. And pretty easy.

Now this fact is important to my point, I mainly play hotwire.

A new game mode in which you capture a base, that happens to be a vehicle that you need to drive quickly.

So your main objective is to either drive or repair so other guy can keep driving.

Now if you wanted to you could be that guy who just hides and blows up enemy cars. And I know, that can be fun sometimes. Believe me, I love explosions as much as the next action hero.

I just like the fact the I can be in the top 5 or so, with faaaaaar more deaths than kills. One match I went 2/12 and was still 3rd on the leaderboard.

Here’s some stats.




Impressive? No, not really. But thats my point. Most these matches I’ve won despite my less than average K/D.


It’s definitely been fun. And I’ll keep trying to improve my playing but in the mean time, I’m just glad I can still be a good teammate.

But the way I see it, at least I’m trying. So…



Edit: playing as a hacker is also a lot of fun. Puts rts into it. Which wasn’t my thing before, but I’ve really started to dig it.


How I see myself